Gratefulness, Positivity and Hope

Experts said that yesterday was the most depressing day in history. Yesterday, I did one of the stupidest things in my entire life and ended up really hurting someone whom I hold dear. Yesterday, I really cried after repressing my emotions for a long time. Yesterday, I slept with that heavy feeling in my heart and with thoughts of not wanting to get up the next day. Those thoughts were so strong to the point that I was even thinking I'd be in a coma just because of the mere thought that I don't want to wake up.

But then again, it's weird how seemingly down and depressing days can turn out to be those days you wouldn't want to forget. And it's not just because of all the negative emotions you feel. For me, it is during these days when I find out how much my friends care about me, and these are the moments when I appreciate my life even more.

I'm not really trying to be preachy, and I don't mean to offend anyone with what I'm typing right now. For me, I guess it's all about finding the good in even the worst of situations. It's all about being more understanding of the people who seem to bring out the worst in you. It's all about not giving up even when it seems there's no hope anymore. As long as people live, there will always be hope. That's the last thing that came out of Pandora's box as Greek mythology narrates it. It seemed insignificant, especially when compared to all the dark forces that came out before it. But for me it is much stronger than all the dark forces combined, as long as people recognize it and allow it to fill them up. (Sounds cheesy, but I can't find other words to describe it. :P)

And so today, I woke up. Admittedly, I'm still not as happy as I usually am. But I do not harbor anger of any sort towards anyone. Instead, I'm filled with gratefulness to everyone around me, and especially to God for allowing me to live out another day. Most of all, I'm filled with hope. Yes, even if people say that I should stop or that I am wrong in doing so, I will continue hoping. That's one of the things no one can ever take away from me.